Despondent Surrender 가사

I look all around and I do not like what I can see The sky is painted gray as tears rain down all over me My eyes are ever dimming as I sink into this well Living in the depths of my own self-made hell I give up on life I'm not meant for this world I no longer feel (like I belong here) I never swam on down this constant ever-flowing stream Each night I go to sleep wondering if this is all a dream Lying in my bed and contemplating thoughts of death Fear escapes me as I long to end my breath This world is depressing and I feel a need to leave Caught within the web my misanthropy doth weave Emotional breakdown and I soon will give in Despondent surrender, why fight what I cannot win? Aah.... Aah.... I no longer really care My eyes are dry my heart is bare Aah... Aah... Sinking deeper in the well I hear the tolling of the midnight bell