It Kills Me 가사

They see how I'm moving with me I'm not see-through She ask what I do, I just do what I need to They ask how I am, I just am how they need me Replace feeling feelings with just feeling busy It's cool but it kills me It's cool but it kills me I'm so used to being let down by the people And things I believe in, you'd think I'd be stronger But the only thing that I learned from repeat Disappointment Is don't let 'em see it all on you I promise it kills me It's cool but it kills me My momma thought I'd be a superstar right about now, she always went to bat for me I'm letting her down every time that I tell her the show wasn't apt for capacity I promised that woman a mansion I promised that woman a life with celebrities I know she's not gonna say it but she don't wan' hear no more promises She's almost seventy Every time I get the momentum I lose the momentum like it wasn't meant for me Get an idea then a brand-new idea Then I leave the idea that was probably best for me I don't care much about being the richest I care a lot more about reaching my destiny I know that Momma is never gon' say what she think 'bout her son and it They see how I'm moving with me I'm not see-through She ask what I do, I just do what I need to They ask how I am, I just am how they need me Replace feeling feelings with just feeling busy It's cool but it kills me It's cool but it kills me I'm so used to being let down by the people And things I believe in, you'd think I'd be stronger But the only thing that I learned from repeat Disappointment Is don't let them see it all on you I promise it kills me It's cool but it kills me Facial recognition everywhere I go, my life is weirder than I thought it would be Always thought it could be cool to have it, am I wrong to tell you that it's bothering me? Strangers come up and they usually will mention old music from an album or two Even though they're showing love, I still internalize it as: What the fuck happened to you? What the fuck you doing? Where the fuck is Between Somewhere Token? Fuck you do with him? Really all they said was: Holy shit, Token! I love you, I love Household Name Can we do a pic? How did I become a person that don't see A blessing that's next to him showing him all that love? Maybe this shit isn't meant for me like I thought it was They see how I'm moving with me I'm not see-through She ask what I do, I just do what I need to They ask how I am, I just am how they need me Replace feeling feelings with just feeling busy It's cool but it kills me