Almost Had It 가사

Snow falls like ashes in the dark Gun in my hand, but I’ve lost the spark Another job, another life to take But why does my pulse start to hesitate? Through the window, I see them laugh A family whole, with nothing cracked A love so simple, safe, and true The kind I swore I'd never need—until I saw you I swore I’d never let myself want more Never stand outside some stranger’s door But now I see a life I’ll never touch And fuck, it hurts too much I almost had it, I almost held it A love that didn’t break, a home that never melted For just a second, I saw it there— Me, Loona, Octavia, Stolas, without a single care But reality’s colder than the falling snow So I turn away and let it go Loona asks if I'm okay I force a smile, I look away She says she’ll handle it, take the lead But for once, I don’t feel the need I see the scene play out again A world where love ain’t just pretend A family smiling, arms pulled tight A dream that dies in Sinsmas night I swore I’d never let myself want more Never stand outside some stranger’s door But now I see a life I’ll never touch And fuck, it hurts too much I almost had it, I almost held it A love that didn’t break, a home that never melted For just a second, I saw it there— Me, Loona, Octavia, Stolas, without a single care But reality’s colder than the falling snow So I turn away and let it go Maybe in some different time Maybe in a life that isn’t mine I’d take the shot, but not for blood— I’d take it for the ones I love But I know better, I know me Love is something I can't keep So I walk away, leave it behind Pretend it never crossed my mind I almost had it, I almost held it A love that didn’t break, a home that never melted For just a second, I saw it there— Me, Loona, Octavia, Stolas, without a single care But reality’s colder than the falling snow So I turn away and let it go Nah, fuck this We’re going home