This Present Darkness 가사

A smile on my face Hides the pain inside I feign happiness But wish I would die I wish I would die I wish I would die You can't judge a book by its cover Because nothing is as it ever seems I thought I felt true happiness once But it turned out to be only a dream Days turn to months and months into years I live a life full of doubt and fear I've seen my loved ones come and go Is this what it's like to be all alone I've seen my loved ones come and go Is this what it's like to be all alone All alone All alone This isn't how I wanted to be As I constantly hurt the ones I love My prayers still go unanswered God, I hate the thing that I've become Days turn to months and months into years I live a life full of doubt and fear I can no longer hold this pain How much more can I take Crushed beneath the pressure And I am about to break God, will You show Your face to me Or has my devotion been a lie I'm blinded by my doubts and fears Oh God, will you open up my eyes I'm lost in this present darkness There seems to be no end in sight But I still crawl along on my knees Praying for a brief sign of the light