Looking Up lyrics

I said goodbye at fifteen and I didn't know it meant I’d be crying in my twenties still not knowing where you went How long is forever cause it’s getting kinda old The way I'm getting older and the way I know you won’t I'm talking to the ceiling hoping that it's loud enough There better be a heaven, 'cause I keep on lookin' up I keep on lookin' up I keep on lookin' up I see you all the time, but it's only in my head I pick at the scars 'cause I'm scared that I'll forget I laugh at stupid memories and I cry out of the blue I'm holding on to grief 'cause it feels like holding you I'm talking to the ceiling hoping that it's loud enough There better be a heaven, 'cause I keep on lookin' up I keep on lookin' up I keep on lookin' up I keep on lookin’ up I keep on lookin’ up It’s bad enough I’ll never know if these are wasted words The thought that you’re not out there somewhere only makes it worse If you can see me, you can find me, I'm still where I always was There better be a heaven cause I keep on lookin’ up