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I've been holdin' the stomach in for so long Don't even notice I'm doin' it anymore I work out hard, seven days a week But I don't feel any differently I wonder if I'll ever change I don't think I can live this way I wake up hatin' my body Scared that there's nothing that'll make it better If I'm not happy and skinny, quiet and pretty Do I even matter? Hate being hungry when I go to sleep Bitin' my tongue so much it's gonna bleed I'm killin' myself, but I don't think it's helpin' at all Tryin' to be small Oh-oh, ooh Walk over me and I take it so politely 'Cause I still care what they think and if they like me I used to smile and show my teeth Now I don't smile at anything I wonder if I'll ever change I, I don't wanna be this way I wake up hatin' my body Scared that there's nothing that'll make it better If I'm not happy and skinny, quiet and pretty Do I even matter? Hate being hungry when I go to sleep Bitin' my tongue so much it's gonna bleed I'm killin' myself, but I don't think that it's helpin' at all Tryin' to be Everything that makes me sad A therapist, a punchin' bag Wish I could eat and not feel bad Swear I'm gonna scream No one's ever listenin' And they don't care it's killin' me As long as I can fuckin' sing Then life is a dream But I wake up hatin' my body Scared that there's nothing that'll make it better If I'm not happy and skinny, quiet and pretty Do I even matter? Hate being hungry when I go to sleep Bitin' my tongue so much it's gonna bleed I'm killin' myself, but I don't think that it's helpin' at all I'm killin' myself, and I don't think it's healthy at all Tryin' to be small