I Don't Wanna Have To Lie lyrics

I don't wanna have to lie to everybody, about how I feel I can't eat, can't sleep I'm on my knees, praying for a miracle It's all right, what you say, like a knife I know you like the taste of blood I love you, I hate you, I have you, I lose you I just want someone to love I don't wanna have to lie to everybody I just wanna light, I wanna smoke more cigarettes You think that I like gettin hurt But I do it, I can't seem to help myself I'm a big girl, but big girls get hurt too, and they cry You think that I'm tough enough But I know when you look at me right now That all you can see is blood I don't wanna have to lie to everybody, about how I feel Waves of sadness, waves of grief A river that feels like it'll never stop runnin' And all you can see is the lies I know it's all over my face I can't change, I can't hide I don't wanna have to lie to everybody About how I feel, (ohh whoa ohh) Don't wanna have to lie to everybody, about how I feel