The Drugs Never Loved You lyrics

Do you ever think about me In the middle of an ordinary day? Does the memory of a four-month-old baby Ever cross your mind and stay? I don't remember your face I don't remember your hands But somehow I've spent my whole life Missing someone I never had I grew up with a hole inside me A space shaped just like you And all these years I've been wondering If you ever missed me too The drugs never loved you The bottle never stayed It only took and took from you Until there was nothing left to save The drugs never loved you But I did Before I knew your voice Before I knew what loss was And if I can love you Without a single memory Imagine how much I would've loved you If you'd stayed with me You became a stranger Who gave me her eyes and blood A story I was born from A wound covered up with love People say time heals everything But some things never leave How do you stop missing a mother You never got to keep? I tried to hate you God knows I tried But every piece of anger Had heartbreak hiding inside The drugs never loved you But I still do Even after all the nights I cried because of you You thought they understood you You thought they'd ease the pain But they were never waiting for you The way I would've been You were offered chances You tried and then let go And part of me still wonders why You didn't fight for us both Maybe you were broken Maybe you were scared Maybe nobody ever taught you How to believe someone cared I forgive you A thousand times, I do But forgiveness doesn't erase What abandonment can do The drugs never loved you Not the way I did Because even now After all these years After all this hurt I still hope you're okay I still hope you're alive And if you ever think of me I hope you know You were loved You were loved by the daughter You left behind You may never know that I loved you my whole life You may never know that I loved you my whole life