I miss her lyrics

Reality is distorted don't you think? I'm stuck with these tasks can never go back They'll never know what I really mean Hide behind thin trees tryna be grateful 'Cause that's what the world tells you to do Just follow the classics Drop the theatrics But I'm concerned about my well being You know? What if I lost all my essence What if it all was in vain I've built all of this structure Just like they told me I couldn't abstain from it Don't see myself in any mirror Tried to change back going insane Is it fidelity if I'm unhappy? I miss her I miss who I used to be What does it mean to grow old? Is it compromising? Having to let go? Is my sparkle gone along with my smooth skin? Do I really have to give up making plans to party in Berlin 'Cause once you face stability You never imagine how much you'd pay to leave What if I lost all my essence What if it all was in vain I've built all of this structure Just like they told me I couldn't abstain from it Don't see myself in any mirror Tried to change back going insane Is it fidelity if I'm unhappy? I miss her I miss who I used to be Do we really have to live through life scared of losing the things The ones that make us us my soul is spiraling 'Cause I know I know I'm the same It's just it doesn't show doesn't show on my face Oh, I I beg of you to read between the lines I'm desperate but no one can see If I speak up then I'll be crucified Don't want any more responsibilities Was it all Was it all in vain Was it all Was it all in vain Was it all Was it all in vain Was it all What if I lost all my essence What if it all was in vain I've built all of this structure Just like they told me I couldn't abstain from it Don't see myself in any mirror Tried to change back going insane Is it fidelity if I'm unhappy? I miss her I miss who I used to be I miss her I miss who I used to be I miss her I miss who I used to be I miss her I miss who I used to be I miss her I miss who I used to be