And He Used To Be The Sweetest Boy lyrics

My My My My boy say 'bout me He used to hold the door like the world was gentle Like nothing bad could ever reach me there His voice was soft, his hands were careful Like love was something you protected, not something you shared He used to listen when I spoke in pieces Collect my silence like it meant something real And I believed in the way he looked at me Like I was safe, like I could finally feel I remember laughing without looking over my shoulder Sleeping without bracing for pain I remember a version of me that trusted him And that's the part I can't explain My baby say 'bout me Somewhere between the before and the after I lost him without a goodbye And now I'm mourning a boy who still breathes Just not in the same light They say 'bout me, but no in front my face And he used to be the sweetest boy Before the love turned sharp and cold Before his words learned how to destroy The things he promised he would hold And he used to be the safest place Now he's the reason I can't sleep I don't miss who he is today I miss who he used to be He used to be He used to be me He used to be Before the damage, before the line My boo say 'bout me He used to kiss my forehead slowly Like time had nowhere else to go Now every touch feels like a warning Like something I already know I watched his kindness fade in pieces Like a light learning how to die And I stayed longer than I should have Just to keep the memory alive My boy say I tried to love him back to who he was Tried to remind him of the boy I knew But you can't save someone who's already gone You just break trying to And now I stand in the quiet aftermath Holding ghosts that still feel warm Grieving a love that didn't end It just transformed They say 'bout me, but no in front my face And he used to be the sweetest boy Before the love turned sharp and cold Before his words learned how to destroy The things he promised he would hold And he used to be the safest place 'Now he's the reason I can't sleep I don't miss who he is today I miss who he used to be He used to be A reason to believe He used to be Everything I couldn't leave I'm not in love with who I am I'm in love with a memory that hurts With a version of him that only exists In the parts of me, he is my reflection, first touched And maybe that's the cruelest truth of all You don't just lose someone, you lose yourself The boy who thought love was always soft The boy who didn't need to protect herself So iet him go for the last time Not because stopped caring or tried But because finally understood That staying was how he died They say 'bout me, but no in front my face And he used to be the sweetest boy Before the love turned sharp and cold Before his words learned how to destroy The things he promised he would hold And he used to be the safest place Now he's the reason I can't sleep I don't miss who he is today I miss who he used to be I just say I am he He used to be And that's where he'll stay