Scared Of Happy lyrics

(I'm scared of happy) (I'm scared it's not gonna last) (Ooh, I'm scared of happy) (Every good thing feels like the past) It's too good, isn't it? Tell me I'm not dreaming again I keep waiting for the moment When the good turns into pain What the hell is wrong with me? Why can't I just let myself breathe? I was never used to someone Making me feel safe so easily Ooh You came like a warm summer rain Washing all my worries away But every time I start to smile I get scared it'll disappear someday I'm scared of happy 'Cause what if you don't stay? What if everything I love Gets taken away? I'm scared of happy I don't know how to believe That something this beautiful Could really happen to me And yes, I want you But I'm terrified Ooh, I'm scared of happy tonight Sleepless nights Wondering when the feeling will fade I keep looking for a reason To be scared of being okay Maybe I should just move forward Stop expecting things to fall I didn't know how to hold something good Without being afraid of losing it all (I finally found something real, so why am I scared?) (I finally feel loved, but I'm waiting for the end) Maybe I should let you love me Maybe I should let myself stay I don't wanna run from something Just because I'm scared of yesterday (I'm learning that happiness doesn't have to hurt) You made me smile like the first day of spring Ooh And somehow you made me believe That maybe good things can stay I'm scared of happy 'Cause what if you don't stay? What if everything I love Gets taken away? I'm scared of happy I don't know how to believe That something this beautiful Could really happen to me And yes, I want you But I'm terrified Ooh, I'm scared of happy tonight I'm still remembering The first time you made me smile And for a little while I forgot to be afraid Ooh I fall apart when everything gets quiet I start thinking of all the things I've lost I know I can't control tomorrow But I'm tired of counting every cost I want you I want this I want to let myself be happy I don't want to run I swear I don't want to run But there's a voice inside my head Saying, don't get too comfortable And every time you hold my hand I wonder when you'll let it go Why is happiness so frightening? Is this what love is supposed to feel like? I'm scared of happy 'Cause what if you don't stay? What if everything I love Gets taken away? I'm scared of happy But I'm learning to believe That something this beautiful Could really happen to me And yes, I want you And I'm done hiding Maybe I don't have to be afraid Of finally being happy Ooh, I'm scared of happy But I'm staying anyway Ooh, I'm scared of happy But maybe that's okay I'm scared of happy I'm scared, but I'm here I'm scared of happy But I'm letting you near Ooh Maybe happiness can stay Maybe happiness can stay