Afraid Of Quiet lyrics

Promise I'm fine when I'm not See my minds spinning round and around with my thoughts I'm a pot with no lid And the water is bubbling Bout to boil over the temperatures doubling Siren alarm in the night And I can't stop the noise 'Cause I swear there's a fire somewhere I can't see it or hear it Or smell it or taste it But what if I'm not prepared how will I face it? If I could calm myself down Just breath in and breath out Take a second Let go of control Then my mind could be free But what if I drop the ball for just a moment? Who would pick it up, a friend or an opponent? Can't I just calm down Stop the sound Take a breath and just relax But sometimes I'm afraid of quiet And what that would mean Cry a lot, fill a room with my tears I'm like Alice, except I'm the only mad one here Wish I could face what is coming But I keep on running I'm chasing the bunny Did I wake you, my noise was too loud? I'm sorry next time I'll turn my grief down If my turmoil troubles you I can just leave and I'll cry in another room I swear that I'm in control Or least I will be Working on regulation Affirmation and therapy Breath control Become a better me Can't I just calm down Stop the sound Take a breath and just relax But sometimes I'm afraid of quiet And what that would mean Tossing and turning The suns in the sky It's 5am I can't close my eyes Want to turn off Just have some peace White noise is here And I can't sleep Tossing and turning The suns in the sky It's 5am I can't close my eyes Want to turn off Just have some peace White noise is here And I can't sleep Tossing and turning The suns in the sky It's 5am I can't close my eyes Want to turn off Just have some peace White noise is here And I can't sleep I swear that I'm in control or least I will be I am ruler of my mind and it will bow To me! To me! But sometimes I'm afraid of Quiet And what that would