Thinking lyrics

I keep thinking I see you When I'm sleeping I dream you My head's as heavy As the weight of my body Your silence confuses me What I want Is an explanation What I need Is to be released Because part of me Is still holding on to you Because part of me Likes to feel defeat So what if this whole the one thing Is really real And I screwed it up To keep myself away Because somewhere inside me I still believe that I don't deserve To be loved this way What I want Is an explanation What I need Is to be released Because part of me Is still holding on to you Because part of me Likes to feel defeat I keep thinking I keep thinking I keep thinking