Heart In A Hearse lyrics

Know they gon' judge me for better or worse This gift a bliss but it feels like a curse Cause, I write my best when I'm down and I'm hurt Put my heart in a hearse I die when writting a verse I tell the truth like confessions in church Blessed with the spirit but still I be repeating the hurt Standing on trial for the trials I trial-and-errored to pass, ain't been on my best I can't even mask it How many times I gotta fall just to fly? How many times I gotta die just so I feel alive How many tries I gotta try to finally reach to the sky and see eye to eye with heaven 'fore my body retires Let the curtains fall, I show you the scars Gave them my all, now I'm burried in bars They want the light but I live in the dark Still tryna heal a soul that they tore apart Will I ever fly? Will I ever know? How much of myself do I gotta let go? Before my body retires They want the gospel, I'm just venting my sins Wondering where the trauma ends and music begins Alone in the cold I clearly hear the whispers and noise Judge the path a nigga walk but wish to step in my shoes They follow my moves and mimic my pose That love and hate relationship they got for me is such a sickening thing But fuck what they mean that's said to be mean What I'm in and do in life the only one can judge is who set me up The government too, so don't act a fool Moving legal all the time 'cause time is something ain't nobody can own I gotta get to where I'm going 'fore my body retires Let the curtains fall, I show you the scars Gave them my all, now I'm burried in bars They want the light but I live in the dark Still tryna heal a soul that they tore apart Will I ever fly? Will I ever know? How much of myself do I gotta let go? Before my body retires