Fading Light of a Dying Sun lyrics

As the sun goes down and darkness arrives My mind flees from fear of death Suicide has taken so many lives I am at the stage where I cannot decide To take my life or to go on living Is this a sin please tell me God I mourn at the thought of my loved ones death It seems that there is nothing left for me Suicide remains an option inside I do not know whether I should be dead I only wish that God would answer my prayers Grief, pain, torture and death Are the only feelings I know Living is now called pain to me Love is lost in my memory I am now forced to feel sorrow Will I last to see tomorrow I am waiting for a change in this abnormal life Will it come and will I survive If I commit suicide I cannot be sure If I will end up in heaven or hell As the darkness fades and I see the first rays of light Another day of misery is all that is ahead of me