On and Off lyrics

Staring at the mirror till my face distorts Notice all my flaws and every faded mark Can't remember what I used to see before Leaving conversations like an open door One day I feel better than I usually do Something's kinda different and I can improve But then the next day I feel lower than I was I hate this constant battle I just wanna be done I'm so on and off like a toxic relationship I try to move on but I feel like I'm needing it Ditching parties early is my favorite part Instead of going in I'll just sit in my car Loving where I am until I hate it It's been way too long and now I'm jaded I'm so on and off like a toxic relationship I try to move on but I feel like I'm needing it I'm too soft I'm never quite healing Just on and off and on and off Maybe if I leave here I'll feel better My mood won't be dependent on the weather I won't have to try to be so clever Writting all my problems in a letter Only writting songs about things I can't relate to Talking about love but I never even date You say I'm not that bad and you always tolerate me But what if you're just lying and secretly hate me? I'm so on and off like a toxic relationship I try to move on but I feel like I'm needing it I'm too soft I'm never quite healing Just on and off and on and off And on and off and on and off