One Big Apology lyrics

I look in the eyes of my drunk friends and I see my father and it weighs me down they don't know whether they love me they won't fight me or how much they've hurt and it weighs me down It's just one big apology It's just one big apology how do you work up so much emotion over something that's over once now (?) how do you make things bigger make things smaller to get where your going or think you are It's just one big apology It's just one big apology I thougt my way around it I've thought of all these things I thought if you could save you could own a life (?) The siren gets the bad rep when she brings sinners in yeah, they should all know better but thery'e just finding better things.