Willingly Unknowing lyrics

Sitting here and shaking at the top of the world Celebrating times that were really absurd All I have to do is to say those words And then my mind is overflowing Someone is trying hard for the very first time But, someone is laying there saying... I never had the chance to be the one Starring at the ceiling at the end of the day Stimulating life well that's all I can say I don't have to think it's a great relief And I am willingly unknowing A mess, a mess I can't repair the damage I can't believe how difficult it is A mess, a mess I can't repair the damage But I'm never giving in No I'm never giving in