Victim Heavy Version lyrics

Thinking suicide Thinking suicide Thinking suicide Thinking suicide Thinking suicide Look at my eyes (suicide) I need a disguise To hide my lies Oh god What have I done To myself To her Before your eyes What could drive me so mad To lose what we had The mystery remains inside Want to make it real Like it was before And I lost the bond Cause I shut the door In search of ways to be myself But ended up like somebody else Trusted me Honored me Fought for me Cried for me Lived for me Died for me Open my eyes I see the walls White as snow They don't seem strong Betrayed myself Opened my eyes Can't see those walls I feel so dumb Like a fuckin' bum Preferred to run Then face the fact I stabbed your back I understand that Did not deserve that You can't go back Do you see it? Oh my god what have I done? Please forgive me fuck that! I feel So hated So aggravated So frustrated I can't explain it The way that I feel I feel so dumb Like a fuckin' bum Preferred to run Then face the fact I stabbed your back I'm a victim Slippin through the system Victim Slippin through the system Open my eyes Can't see those walls I feel so dumb Like a fuckin' bum Preferred to run Then face the fact I stabbed your back I understand that Did not deserve that you can't go back Do you see it? Oh my god what have I done Please forgive me fuck that I feel So hated So aggravated So frustrated I can't explain it The way that I feel I feel so dumb Like a fuckin' bum Preferred to run Then face the fact I stabbed your back I'm a victim Slippin through the system Victim slippin through the system Victim slippin through the system Victim slippin through the system Victim slippin through the system Victim victim victim victim victim victim victim victim