Nightlife lyrics

I left it to chance I never should’ve let this get so far out of hand But I’ll do anything to not be alone ’Cause when I'm alone, you know I Can easily fall back into old habits That I thought I’d left behind And they rip me apart and I realize I don't feel love, I have to lie Take everything and keep it inside I know I'm sick and I'm not right I'm so fucking tired of living this life I made for myself, I'm sorry that I Cannot get past what keeps me away from the light I hope this explains my problem to you Because I feel like this every night Don’t wanna be like this, anxious and angry Or hopeless and upset all the time Unable to get back the feeling I lost somewhere along the line I wear it all on my sleeve and everyone sees, no matter how hard I try I’ve never felt worse in my whole life I don't feel love, I have to lie Take everything and keep it inside I know I'm sick and I'm not right I'm so fucking tired of living this life I made for myself, I'm sorry that I Cannot get past what keeps me away from the light I hope this explains my problem to you Because I feel like this every night Feel like this every night Feel like this every night (Night after night) Feel like this every night Every single night