Soliloquy Collection lyrics

I thought My dreams were lost That it was too late for all of this But a light shone upon me And brought me here Now, feel the energy Of my music flowing right where you are This is the frequency Of a new beginning for someone Who learned to live, not just exist My solilóquio collection Is my autobiography set to music I turned my journey into song From the very start to right now To those who thought they knew me You didn't even know the tip of the iceberg And here I am, soaring higher every day I could talk about so much I've been through But there's a difference between singing and justifying I no longer feed the curiosity Of those who don't wish me well I learned to step away From those who subtract without adding a thing Go ahead and judge me But the unfollows I hit on insta Reflect the tears I cried all alone– The ten hours in a hospital bed Waiting for surgery Without receiving a single message Not even a hi, how are you? They reflect the seizures I've had throughout my life Dismissed as nothing more than She's used to it, it was nothing Me, recovering all by myself While everyone else just went on with their lives Ooh life is cause and effect Ooh life is cause and effect Ooh life is cause and effect Ooh life is cause and effect I realized I was the one allowing all of this I gave a platform to those who belittled me To the people who told me to work a supermarket Checkout while I was finishing my phd To those who reduced my neurodivergence To being financially and emotionally dependent I took responsibility Shedding the role of the victim And choosing instead to play the villain The one who succeeded in life and went it alone But what the judges don't see Are the pains I carried all alone The rock bottom I hit all alone The failures and the thousand fresh starts, all alone People forget, or pretend to forget The times they treated me with contempt Ignored me while I spoke Crossed the street when I walked by Left me out of the good parties Called me a bad thing or a nuisance Yeah, believe it uncensored That's what this song should have been called I changed it, it used to be starting over But that would've been too obvious, and unfair To the weight those words carry An absolute outpouring born of brutal honesty From a neurodivergent person without a diagnosis Who learned to survive even while in pieces I thought My dreams were lost That it was too late for all of this But a light shone upon me And brought me here Now, feel the energy Of my music flowing from where you are This is the frequency Of a new beginning for a soul That learned to live, not just exist My soliloquy collection Is my autobiography set to music I turned my journey into song From the beginning until now