Heavy Heavy lyrics

I wake up feeling empty Empty out the shit that's in my brain I press my head against the shower wall And watch it all drip down the drain I'm feeling empty Fuck the MTA I always miss my train I thought I saw you standing there Oh, wait, it's only someone else's face These thoughts feel obvious because they play On repeat in my mind And by the time they fall out of my mouth I've told myself a hundred thousand times It's getting heavy, heavy Telling everybody that I'm fine I'm feeling heavy, heavy Does it mean I wanna fucking die?