I Have A Hard Time Explaining Myself lyrics

i have a hard time explaining myself last time i followed the crumbs that led to your den i found you alone i could have stared at your shadow for hours on end maybe i'm easily swayed and i should have known you wouldn't come home i have a hard time explaining myself to my friends i have been trying to reach you for days are you deserted in numerous ways what can i do if there is a record that stands in our way i would be happy to have it erased how about you