Noir lyrics

I wish I could know What is wrong with me All I try to show Seems to go unseen So much space between Myself and anything Further away I stray I feel myself fade Overwhelming intrusive thought Staring into the Sun Pull me down I am only stepping stones Shadow of my silhouette Blade in my spine Mine all mine Forever in debt to My reclusive mind Noir in my eyes Blood spills when I cry I can't escape it So I embrace it I remember the days before The sky was always so gray Before smiles were Not just hiding the pain