Polaroid lyrics

What a familiar pain I feel Through my veins I won’t heal Is this a pattern I'm damned to repeat Can’t go on Feeling this weak If my past effects My present How do I begin To learn the difference I’ve grown attached To the pain That lives inside of me I turn my back On reality Don’t reach out For me I’ll build the walls Around me With little windows So I can see I promise not To disappear Completely What a familiar Pain I feel Having trouble Telling what is real Is this a pattern I'm damned to repeat Gripping my White flag Of defeat The one that Hurt me first Told me It was true That I’d never learn To live without you And I wish I could remember The good times But those were The first To leave my mind Now I only see you In flashes Like pictures On Polaroid