Текст песни Chaospiracy

Daily, frequently It insists, chaos settles in me In my life, in my deeds A controversial desire for being free I'll try to find a way How to survive this day Play dead and let it be Or reach for what I need? Eyes that look at nowhere Mind flies to everywhere Must I obey those rules? Or do what I think is fair? But what is fair when you're in hell? For things that you are ashamed to tell Refuse to think in what I've been A suicidal desire for serenity Search in my mind again How do I break these chains Short breath accelerates Blood seems to freeze in veins Eyes that look at nowhere Mind flies to everywhere Must I obey those rules? Or do what I think is fair? One more dose, one bottle of whiskey My good friend is always there for me With the advice that I must get out This inner war is killing me One more dose, one bottle of whiskey My good friend is always there for me And puts me doubts if I'm doing right This inner war is leading to Destruction, self destruction Disorder, filled out the blank One more dose, one bottle of whiskey My good friend is always there for me With the advice that I must get out This inner war is killing me One more dose, one bottle of whiskey My good friend is always there for me And puts doubts if I'm doing right Or I am just a bad seed Seems like the world became my enemy Seems like there is a conspiracy In my life and is has begun Chaos is here I can't give up now I must face it My life, it's my life I decide it Decide it, it's my life, must face it Walk on my shoes, before you judge You don't feel what I've felt Pain in my heart, pain in my mind My soul is boiling Chaos is here My life is ruled by a new disorder Conspiracy, the world fights me Then I will fight it. I will fight it