Текст песни No Hope Before Me

I've come to the end Of my life in this time The hope I once had Is now gone and has died I search for an ending A quest - for the pain I must endure forever, seemingly My existence is bleak Once, I had felt the joy of life It seemed so good to me The beauty of my wife Was there for the whole world to see With the birth of our son I thought that I had it all In the game of life, I'd won Until it all began to fall What had gone wrong? I still don't know … why? Feeling the blood Of my only son It covered my hands What had I done? Feeling that loss And what it now means There I had felt… No hope before me Ridden with the guilt I had inside I couldn't hide from the pain Abandoned by My heartless wife I took her life A stable mind Has gone insane Why me? Why this grief? So many tears With no sympathy Why live this dismal life? As death awaits Please, just let me die With the blade Upon my wrist How could I even resist? Goodbye.