Текст песни Soft Collapse

I've been talking to the ceiling again It listens better than you did Every word you carved in my skin Still hums when I try to forgive I tried to stay soft But the world got in Every kiss felt like confession Every prayer a little sin And I don't wanna fake being okay But I still smile when I decay You say it's healing, I call it disguise We're both drowning, just different tides I breathe in static, spit out gold Pretend I'm younger than I'm old My heart's a rusted satellite Still catching ghosts from every fight If I scream, will it sound like peace Or just another song I'll never release? You told me grace was learned in pain But I'm too tired to play that game I don't need saving, I need space To find the truth behind my face The halo bends, it doesn't shine Your faith is yours, but this wreck is mine So I'll walk alone where silence bleeds Grow flowers out of what I need It's not redemption, it's not regret It's just the part you haven't met