Текст песни To Be Nothing

it's hard to see why life was set to be this way is this the reward I've worked for is this the result of choices I have made or does life chose itself for me predestined to be nothing predestined for so much of random hell we might as well not try for things they fall so heavy all the time come crashing down now what has lead me to this point or am I just a victim of myself in all complexities of simplicity is this just karma