Strange Kind Of Comfort lyrics

It's strange how you still cross my mind When I swore I'd left you behind I talk big like I'm doing fine But I still freeze when I see your sign You're out somewhere chasing dreams And I'm here replaying the same scenes You think I'm cool, calm, and detached But I rehearse that tone, it's an act It's funny, isn't it? How the heart won't quit You're gone, I laugh But I'm not over it So I make a joke Say I'm okay It's a strange kind of comfort Lying this way (I'm okay) It's weird how silence gets so loud When I'm lost in a talking crowd You used to fill those little gaps Now I fill them with what-ifs and laughs I tell my friends you're old news But they know the truth, they always do You think I'm cool, detached, moved on But you still show up in every song It's funny, isn't it? How the heart won't quit You're gone, I laugh But I'm not over it So I make a joke Say I'm okay It's a strange kind of comfort Lying this way (I'm okay) Maybe it's not you I miss Just the version I thought exists The way we looked through tinted glass Made a fairytale that couldn't last I scroll through lies I used to believe And laugh, 'cause that's what's left of me (That's what's, that's what's) (oh, that's what's left of me) It's funny, isn't it? How it still hits I say: I'm fine But I don't mean it So I laugh it off Pretend I'm brave It's a strange kind of comfort I still crave It's funny you're gone And I'm still here Still calling it closure After all these years