Complicated lyrics

Maybe happiness is outta reach for me Because I, I tend to complicate the simplest of things in my life And I'm not here to give an explanation for my actions 'Cause I don't even have an explanation for my actions I spend a lot of time pretending I don't see the things you see I spend a lot of time pretending I don't mind if you will leave I spend a lot of time, spend a lot of time Am I just complicated, or am I living a lie I've been gifted with creating things that people seem to like But they don't know that I create the demons I will have to fight I spend a lot of time pretending I don't see the things you see I spend a lot of time pretending I don't mind if you will leave I spend a lot of time, spend a lot of time Am I just complicated, or am I living a lie Am I just complicated, or am I losing my mind