Close to You lyrics

We met in the quad, late autumn Sun You laughed my jokes Sai I was the one Classes and coffee Names carved on a seat You said yes and my world felt complete But small fears grew like cracks in the floor I checked your phone I watched you more I wanted you close I wanted you near Promise my heart Promise I'd care Now every smile is a proof of a lie Every hello is a threat I can't deny This love is chain, cold and precise You are my map My vice My vice Dinner with friends You smile at the waiter I replay that moment until I was later I sent a hundred texts I showed up unannounced You flinched, you cried My jealousy pounced Bruises hid under sweaters, excuses rehearsed You locked your journal and I rehearsed worse They say possessiveness wears a thin face Mine wore patience until it found a place I wanted you close I wanted you near Promise my heart Promise I'd care I followed your friends I traced every ring Turned harmless talk into a sting This love is a lock without a key I am the night you cannot see You walked into the station with a trembling hand You laid out the messages, the threats, the plans An officer wrote dates, photos, the bruise A detective said, We'll do what we can to prove They filed a report, they asked for names They put a temporary order to block my games But paper is thin when someone knows the streets I melted into crowds, slipped past all beats They canvassed the block, checked cameras by the diner Neighbors described a shadow, the man who watched her Days blurred into nights, you slept with the phone Every chirp made you flinch, you stayed alone I learn their patterns I learn their times I learn where they were weak and where they left blinds You thought the badge meant safety assured But paper cracks and hearts get lured I wanted you close I wanted you near Promise my heart Promise I'd care You thought the law would draw a clean line You thought your name could still be mine This love is closed doors, then finds the key You breathe and hope, you still breathe with me One midnight I came to your building, shoes soft on tile A balcony door unlatched, I stood there a while You woke to footsteps, you pressed 9 with a whisper Neighbors heard a crash, a shout, a slipper 911 logged your plea, dispatch sent a car Headlights rounded the corner, sirens not far I stood in the doorway, I said No one will save you You ran through the house while the hallway gave a view An officer kicked the door, two more filled the frame A neighbor's testimony matched the camera's name I lunged at the window, a struggle on wood An officer sprayed, then a taser did good Cold cuffs clicked on my wrists, they read me my rights Metal tasted like fate under flashing lights They booked me on assault, on stalking, on threats Photos taken, fingerprints inked, my life in cleft sets I wanted you close I wanted you near Promise my heart Promise I'd care They put me in a van, they slammed the door shut You watched from the stoop with a face drained of trust In booking they asked Do you understand? I smiled with a promise, a future unplanned You breathed a moment, thinking the nightmare broke But obsession is patient, it's a thin, careful cloak I whisper through bars that my voice will not cease You sleep with the bolt, I sleep with that piece You think their law can pin me down for good You think a cell can stop what's been understood But love like mine writes on the walls at night I carve your name in the dark with a spite They led me away, lights painting the rain You watched the patrol car fade down the lane You changed the locks, you moved your books, you prayed You still wake at dawn, afraid of the day He's in jail, they tell you, he's finally caught But shadows don't vanish just because of a spot I say it plain through the bars where I dwell This never ends, you are mine still