Upstairs lyrics

I dissociate the memory Torn apart and depressive Apathy Loss of time My whole being's a nightmare I am scared Who am I? Knight errant In armour Alter ego My wall In a moment of shelter I stumble and fall I dissociate the memory I am going straight upstairs To a room in my head I am going straight upstairs I just want to forget Temporary mental escape From pain Temporary mental escape From fear I'm losing touch I dissociate the memory