The Blessing lyrics

Choked by the pressure Inside this glass cage I can't breathe Trapped like an animal Developing sickness I can't just wait for my defeat I am trying to escape from a slow decease Again I feel the thorns in my head I can't control my behavior I'm hanging onto life And I... Hurt myself to death to feel I'm alive Rebirth through self-destruction's what I crave Beware my practices 'cause I... Hurt myself to death only to survive A matter of perception A thin line between pleasure and pain Is this what they call insanity? A self-blessing in grief I always liked the taste of my blood But this doesn't mean I will stand here Waiting for you to destroy my life I am just hanging onto life And I hurt myself to death to feel I'm alive In this world Out of control Free to decide To die