Wish I Wasn't To Me lyrics

I'm drinkin' from a broken glass And wishin' I could freeze the past But nothing ever seems to stay the same I'm tired of the consequence From using someone's innocence Addiction grows from going to her place And deep to my bones I fought to find an answer To wanting more And constantly turn fake But if I could escape the words Only redefine them down to whispers Dear God, sometimes I wish I wasn't me I wish I wasn't me My light keeps turning red to black I'm meaning to keep looking back But sometimes it's so hard to keep the faith I'm feeling fuckin' bottomless I'm cursed with always wanting someone else And not be happy where I am (Where I am) And deep to my bones I fought to find an answer To wanting more And constantly turn fake But if I could escape the words Only redefine them down to whispers Dear God, sometimes I wish I wasn't me