First Row In Hell lyrics

Today was the very first day that I felt alone that I felt it slipping away Today was the very first time I toyed with the idea of throwing it all away Today I felt a scorching flame, kneel down and obey misery My ego was thrown in my face This is the first row in hell I can not feel, not see the pain Why can't it stop? What's going on? Today I was told that I was weak My only goal was to stay far away from pain Why can't it stop? What's going on? All is lost now.