I Don't Deserve The Pleasure lyrics

If I have faded over time If I've receded over the years It's all for the best Wouldn't want to stay the same Wouldn't want what would remain But it hurts all the same Yet I won't allow myself to cry I won't allow myself to relieve me my pain No I won't allow myself to cry I won't allow myself to relieve me my pain I don't deserve the pleasure We all got ways to get on by Except the ones who don't I may be one of those who does But not by easing out I'm not seventeen no more Not so sure I ever was I sacrified my past Became a lesser entity I exorcised what made me me No regrets still I ache But I won't allow myself to cry I won't allow myself to relieve me my pain No I won't allow myself to cry I won't allow myself to relieve me my pain I don't deserve the pleasure