Deperception lyrics

I tried to fill my inner emptiness With drugs and high percent My live negating view Corrodes me from within Common pleasures are strange for me I extend my perception Wanna see things below and beyond Only to come down again And see the world through a grey curtain There's a never ending midnight in myself And only a chemical shine can light it up But how long till all is burnt out Till the decay of my inner self I don't know I feel so weak I see the knife is cutting deep There's a never ending midnight in myself And only a chemical shine can light it up There's a never ending midnight in myself Am I still alive or am I dead?