Confusion lyrics

I am lying on the floor surrounded by deep silence. What kind of show is this, what's happened? The fire is still burning and melting, in my head confused thoughts are exploding. I am lying on the floor surrounded by silence, Shouldn't I know better, that I need a distance? Promise myself that I never want you back again. I beg you, do not torture my feelings. Take this terrible pain off me, I need to spit it out, too long you've sucked (?), once more I make a retreat. I am lying on the floor surrounded by silence, Shouldn't I know better, that I need a distance?