I deserve to bleed lyrics

I wanna rip out my intestines Throw 'em in the sea I wanna raise the money to invest In plastic surgery I wanna cover myself, head to toe With super sexy scars 'Cause I mean Aren't you supposed to burn If you're a star? I want to be torn apart Excruciatingly I punish my body 'Cause it's not good enough for me The scary thoughts are Spreading like a weed The thoughts that say That I deserve to bleed I wanna take a knife And draw a line across my chest I wanna feel much better Than I do when I am at my best I wanna fly away From my own skin And find a better place I wanna slash across What used to be my face I want to be torn apart Excruciatingly I punish my body 'Cause it's not good enough for me The scary thoughts are Spreading like a weed The thoughts that say That I deserve to bleed They say that it gets better But I guess that was a lie I guess we all just fake it till we die Sympathy and love We can extend to someone else But it's harder when you have to love yourself I want to be torn apart Excruciatingly I punish my body 'Cause it's not good enough for me The scary thoughts are Spreading like a weed The thoughts that say That I deserve to bleed The thoughts that say that I deserve to bleed The thoughts that say that I deserve to bleed