Absent lyrics

I caught a glimpse in the corner of my eye I think I knew what I would find But there's something else at play And everything at stake And so the river's calling me, calling me away I'm no saint I've no virtue I wish I could feel that you hurt too But it's so dark I can't tell God from the devil I'm just absent More than ever Can't outrun my head So I'll tell myself I have a right to feel this way So I stepped into the maze And all it did was take And now on long way from all I know I'm no saint I've no virtue I wish I could feel that you hurt too But it's so dark I can't tell God from the devil I'm just absent More than ever I surrender I'm incomplete I've had all I can take So take me in pieces I'm no saint I've no virtue I wish I could feel that you hurt too But it's so dark I can't tell God from the devil I'm just absent More than ever I'm no saint I've no virtue I wish I could feel that you hurt too But it's so dark I can't tell God from the devil I'm just absent More than ever