AFTERMATH lyrics

I'm drawing on paper I could be reading a newspaper But what's the point? My joints are torn So this is how it ends We could spend time with friends But for some reason I'm not in the right season The way you think Doesn't it remind you of ink? But I still haven't figured out why you hate me I have to be On top (on top) But every now and then I remember how we used to be How we used to walk through the big tree But now everything has changed You got what you wanted I wanted it to be different But you're ignorant You don't read my messages But I read my passages I was left alone and sad, trapped in my room Thank you for not making me bloom (bloom) I wish I could go back in time And fix what you ruined, my routine I tried to visit you, but you had already moved on You had already been approved You scare me with death, but now I know your destiny Your destiny is to walk with the entity I have to be On top (on top) I still love you But I live in the blue You made me feel ashamed But I could have blamed you I told you a lie The lie that makes me cry Which is the lie that I trusted you But I could To do Evil things And if you really wanted to know, know that you're wrong I express my feelings in the form of a song I memorized your number, now I can call whenever I want And if I want to go to a restaurant I'll get silverware to improve the service I'll put it on the surface So why did you abandon me? You didn't even tell me You could have written a letter, I would have read it Give me a tool kit I wouldn't hit you every day That would be light every day I have to be On top (on top) I have to be On top (on top) I have to be On top (on top) (Maybe now you understand the message I wanted to convey) (Shall we play something in Los Angeles?) (Something's in the air?)