Moods Like English Weather lyrics

Well I guess I messed things up again I got caught in a landslide and my phone died And the weather added context I swear that I just cried for a week about the sun I came to all the conclusions Of how I'm losing Every single thing I am Had every plan of not moving from my bed ever again But I got scared of everything Well I guess I messed things up again Maybe all I'll ever be Is just a self fulfilling prophecy of all the worries inside me Well I guess I messed things up again Is this all I'll ever be? I was trying to be a better person but I'm weak, I'm weak, I'm weak I've gotten better at losing and it's using Every single bone I have To be the one that's refusing to give up on everything They told me things would get better Like the weather But I'm still waiting for that cold to fade from November Maybe I should let it go I already melt at everything Well I guess I messed things up again Maybe all I'll ever be Is just a self fulfilling prophecy of all the worries inside me Well I guess I messed things up again Is this all I'll ever be? I was trying to be a better person but I'm weak, I'm weak, I'm weak All these moods like English weather Are never getting better I might stay inside forever Where at least I know it's warm