Original lyrics

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I don't know what I'm here, why I'm alone Ashemed of myself and who I've become There's something inside me, something alive I can't stop what's coming, I can't stop the slide I try to outrun, try to stay clean Try to pretend I'm not what I seem But there's cracks in my soul No place to hide, I can't not disguise the hole inside It's not a thought, it's not a choice The pressure is weighted. Silence is no Give me a blue pill, I just want to sleep Ignorance is bliss it's over this life there I keep I didn't want the truth, I just wanted peace But I live the knowledge and never leaves I know that it's there, just under my skin Building and building until something gives in If ignorance was mercy, I missed my way out Now the only relif is when the htting comes out Empty inside, nothing left but a shell Cooking on silence, no story to tell Each swing of the cycle is smaller than last And there's nowhere to run No future, not past, I wish a had options I wish I cold choose, wish some would ask me Red pill or blue? But no one is asking And I already know Once you have seen it, there's nowhere to go It pulls me under, it feels like fate I tired to fight it, too little too late Give me a blue pill, let me forget Let me belive that this isn't it Let me just wake up, before I knew Before the pressure, before the truth Because I know a I can't stop it And the silence will come For one perfect second, its quiet just one And when it happens, the world slows down My hands stop shaking, the thougts are shut out The noise dissolves, the pressure break I finally breathe, I finally okay Just for a moment, just long enough In that one perfect moment I remember what quiet was Then it's gone Then it comes back heavier than before Whith fear in my chest, the shame on the floor Disgust in the mirror, panic in my head Counting the seconds till it happens again, again, again I needed the quiet and swallowed the lie I knew it would cost me, I didn't ask why I don't crave the chãos, I chase the release Chasing the moment, but nothing the peace I should have stayed blinded and taken the blue The bliss is not knowing, and nothing is true But I didn't take it, I live in the red The pressure, the chaos alone in my head It's build and its pulls till to I have to give in And live with what I've done to find silence Again, again, again Give me the blue pill Let me forget