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How many days have passed by me without a single notice? Even after all those years, my voice breaks, leaving words unspoken The mirror shows a version of myself that's out of focus Still, I try with clumsy fingertips, to find the me that's out of reach The sharpened words leaving their mouth repeatedly, they're shunning me That's just the way it is, I know I never meant to fit in anyway Along the red staining my mind, I hear their voices saying Is a defect something special? If yes, I have never mattered after all While running to the future, it seems I let my past decay And every single thing I loved, I've broken apart Regret starts overwhelming me, I cannot catch my breath So frantically, I peel myself until there's nothing left My wounds accumulate, I don't know how to care for them Mistakes I've made piling up without me knowing to repent Is this how I will grow up? Stuck inside this dim vivarium I kept on dreaming, searching, shouting to reach the ideal me Far away, the bright reflecting light Feel it calling for me, reaching inside Before I knew, the solitude had wrapped itself around me In my room filled to the brim, illusions swirling closer, forming a sea Please tell me why no matter what, the tears keep overflowing? As I bite my worn down fingertips, the taste of iron spreading around I hear them in my head, these voices from me and others Repeating, repeating, why were you even born at all? Why can't you do anything? Why don't you know anything? I don't know, I don't know, I really don't know I have no idea what the 'right' thing is at all And before I knew it, I was an adult You didn't believe in anything You didn't believe in anyone All you really needed before you got here Was just a simple 'it's okay' I'm sorry I let you lose your safe place So you know, it's okay if you never come out again Deep within the bustling city, inside that bright light I heard the song of a mechanical girl I really, want to go there too Stuck inside this dim vivarium I kept on dreaming, searching, shouting to reach the ideal me Don't drift too far, don't leave me here alone I don't want to lose you, you don't have to change for me In my own vivarium I'll keep on reaching, clinging, fighting, no matter how lost I get Staring into the bright reflecting light The future I envisioned, deep in your eyes I can't say goodbye yet to who I was I still have to sing Until it reaches daybreak, I know that I'm not here alone Because the you that's hiding in the dark is crying on