Thousand lyrics

It's not supposed to feel right and broken at the same time A thousand lights that dance out of my heart to you each time What do you have to ask me Maybe then you don't feel the thousand pins and needles That I feel near you each time It's just my mouth It's just a word and what is that How does it hurt How does it hurt I'm not supposed to need what I've never had to know it A thousand thoughts that crawl out of the dark to lie with me I'm not supposed to say it the way my head replays it A thousand words and none of them that I can say out loud But out loud is how it feels Is what you hide Just as real Just as real