Shame کے بول

I wonder if you can see I wonder if you can tell I wonder if you see through the mask I wear so well I'll never let you know what's going on inside me My shame locks me down All the things I wanted tell you Are all the things I never will Every time you reached out to me All I did was push you away I can't unchain the beast that screams inside me I hate it, it's what I am It makes me sick to be so mean What I've been and what I've seen From top to bottom, I am obscene It stands in my place It spits in my face Shame You smile I smile back You ask me how I am I say I'm fine I don't know why I'm so torn up inside my mind The darkness swallows me whole Don't go too deep, don't ask me why Don't try to know me, don't make me lie I wish I didn't know the things I know so well I try to change but it's what I am