Isn't That The Best part lyrics

Everything I didn't want to be I've become Everything I didn't want to lose is gone My dreams will never come true I never had a one Playing russian roulette with a full load gun And it's all my fault Isn't that the best part? Yeah, its all my fault Isn't the fucking best part It's a mix of drugs And I mind I've been cursed With a never choose up And all these aches I push I try to clam up And I look that you give If I will give up I wish I could go back and do it all again But the way that I work I just fuck up again I don't know what I'm doing Stop asking my reason for why I keep choosing to be my own demon Everything I didn't wanna be I've become Everything I didn't wanna lose is gone My dreams will never come true I never had a one Playing russian roulette with a full load gun And its all my fault Isn't the best part? Yeah, it's my fault Isn't that the fucking best part?