Waiting And Wandering lyrics

It`s all in me like an aching lump A cancer growing into a beast Distorting truth and feeding lies Like sun and water to faded plant Sometimes I long for the misery Sometimes I crawl through the mud Silly games to feel left behind Masturbation in agony Waiting and wandering x2 Take a look at myself as a victim It`s hard not to laugh in despice Why do I do the things I do I hate myself and i want to Waiting and wandering x4