The past lyrics

It's behind you it's lurking To leap against you Not a monster memories Live much longer A paralyzed heart Full of pain and full of sorrow Could end today and never end tomorrow I've got to rest next it's the past That keeps me waiting for a vague time Need a kick sick what's the trick To light reasons and to move out of the gap I'm trapped in a sad head And I gad about the past What's the name of my retreat Invisible strenght Inane insane can't chop up the chain The background so far and I'm falling again The past is a mystery Hard to forget and easy to kill It's not like history The page of a book I could rend when I look